Two masses of vastness collided into an expanse that seemed to go on for eternity.
After taking off on an early morning flight and finishing reading through all the pamphlets in the seat back pocket (I forgot to bring a book to read), I turned my head and gazed out the window with the clouds floating below me. As the sun rose, I spotted local landmarks and watched miniscule cars cross long bridges below me. Buildings shrunk as I flew upward, and tiny dots of humans became imperceptible. My eyes followed the shoreline next to me, until suddenly everything was gone, and I saw nothing.
Varying shades of blue and white spread out in every direction. The only discernible place my eyes could find was a thin navy line where the ocean met the sky. I thought about nothing.
At many points in my life, a great wide expanse such as this represented nothingness. Looking at the extent of a blank forever indicated that I had nothing ahead of me – no goals, no future, no purpose. I could see the emptiness around me, and felt stuck not knowing what to do or where to go, with no direction of how to proceed. I could only see what was in front of me, and sometimes it truthfully seemed to be absolutely nothing.
Looking out the window of this plane at the spread below, above, and around me, I realized that I was not looking at nothing, but instead I was looking at everything. I could not see the ground below me, and the clear sky above me disguised all else, yet my eyes could see more in that moment than they ever could before.
I started to be able to see beyond me, and I recognized the world of possibilities that could emerge out of that “nothingness.” Instead of being stuck with no direction, I realized that my life begins here, where I am, and can extend outward in any direction with a plethora of opportunities.
All this choice may seem overwhelming at times, but God grants us delightful freedom so that we may use our free will to choose to love Him in our uniquely human way. Centering my life around Christ’s will for me guides me in a direction through the expanse of possibility. We are not limited by just the ocean or the sky, but have opportunity ahead of us far greater than we can imagine.
I can see the same exact image from the window seat on a plane, and have a wildly different understanding of it based on my mindset. If what we see ahead of us seems or feels like nothing, we must change how we view the situation.
We often talk about the vastness of the ocean, or the magnitude of the sky, but we are not limited by just the ocean or the sky. When the two expanses meet, it opens up possibilities and freedom greater than we can comprehend. When the openness of our minds matches the expanse in front of us, the wide stretch suddenly changes from signifying nothing, to signifying everything.
God gives us such an array of opportunities so that we may find our purpose in life and engage in the things that make us and the world a brighter place. In return, we can give that openness back to God to allow Him to direct us in the way He has destined for us. The vastness of our life gives us opportunities to live out our vocation, with no limits.
God created the world out of nothing, so imagine what He can do with us.
In Joy, Monica
For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, plans for your welfare and not for woe, so as to give you a future of hope.